Ok...i found these poems on the internet and they really describe how i've been feeling all summer long...i've done a lot of thinking and i fully regret what i did, it still kills me to think about it and i wish i could take back what i said and say what i didn't get a chance to say and i think that these two poems are basically the cliffnotes version of it...there's so much more to be said but i'll start with this right now:

I'm Sorry

By Duke Nguyen

I'm sorry for everything you've been through

It must've been very hard on you

I'm sorry for all that's been said and done

I was the moon, you were the sun

I'm sorry for not making everything right

I'm sorry for not lending you a hand

If only I could be a better friend

I'm sorry if it seemed like I didn't care

I'm sorry for breaking your heart

For forgiveness, where do I start?

Broken Heart

By Crystal Holtz

I will never forget the days we once had

The days when you were everything to me

My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever

But now I realize that was all a big dream

The feelings I have for you will never go

I wish I could take back that one regretful day

The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms

Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets

That I would once have to live through

The sight of you in someone else's arms

Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces

I sometimes wonder if you still think of me

Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd

I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back

But for now, I'll sit here silently

Remembering all the memories we once shared

Everyday my love grows much stronger

Hoping that one day you will feel the same

And put back the pieces of my broken heart.